Marolyn: Happy New Year

These past couple of weeks have been pretty dramatic, but we have survived.

Ruth basically was teetering on the edge of a manic episode when she wrote her last post.

Long story short, she is in hospital and has been for over a week. Hopefully she will be out Monday. She is recovering very well, although she has a lot of physical discomfort.

I never in my wildest nightmares thought she would end up in hospital. She has been somewhat high over the past few months since she went off her meds (in order to get pregnant-her meds are known to cause birth defects).

She has been in hospital once before and had a very bad time there, but to everyone's surprise she is comfortable there this time and not unhappy about her treatment. I have been impressed with the patience and attentiveness of the staff and feel we are lucky.

I have been on an emotional roller coasters these past weeks. It is very painful to see someone you love so much go away in front of your eyes. My mom came over from California to support me and I have great friends and Ruth's mum is awesome. Overall, I realise that this makes our relationship stronger. It has allowed me to look at my life and our life and see what is truly important. Our health and happiness as individuals and a couple is the main thing.

We are putting the baby stuff off for now, it is still too early in Ruth's recovery to talk about any of that. Her doctors says a manic episode is like a double pneumonia. Your body needs time to recover. So that is what she will be doing over the next few months.

Thank you for your love and support.